old enough to know whats right and young enough not to choose it!

"who is big enough to say that since we have come so far we shall go no further...."

today was one of the few days in my life wen i could actually enjopy the whole day doing what i do best....NUTHIN"! and then you reach aa point in the day when it just becomes impossible to do it anymore and that is when you start getting the feeling of guilt tht u are a worthless piece of **** with **** for brains.... this lasts for @ 5 minutes before you getup clean up and go out to do mor eof nuthing and somehow the guilt vanishes... its doing the same thing tht u did at home somewhere else and yet it feels like u have accomplished something more than ordinary!
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IF succes is getting to point where you want to kill yourself and you dont .. then i am close to failure....

well life has come to a point where we really have to fight to stay sane cos things arent looking so bright.. i mean workwise when all tht u do turns to shit and all the things tht u want to do are being done in front of u but not by u!!!

just to make a point ....lets keep a days journal and see what we have accomplished today...

well 7:00 am. woke up and started watching tv....

11:00 am. still on tv no shit.. no shower .. no shave... nuthing still existing in the same place at the same bed in the same clothes....

12:00 noon.... showered shaved shat.... still on tv though....

1:00 pm. left for work.. the fact tht i have nuthing to do at office and tht there will be nuthign to do there strangely doesnt bother me one bit!

6:00 pm. still here at office... getting so bored tht i write into my blog!!....